It is real.

This day, was the day where my life has changed in SO MANY WAYS.  I was sleeping in my new bed in my new home back in Flagstaff, AZ where I heard my phone blow up with many emails from Facebook, Instagram, Pintrest and so many other unnecessary websites to look at, at 1:05 AM. (yes AM, I had bad insomnia, I think...)  As I was scrolling through my emails, I spotted one that said "Peace Corps, donotreply."  At first I did'n't think of anything so I turned my phone off and went to sleep (finally.)  As I woke up AGAIN at 8:00 AM on my first day at The Guidance Center, I got more emails from Peace Corps donotreply.  I honestly thought it was junk because of the font, but something was telling me that I needed to open it RIGHT NOW.  so......I did. 

In big bold letters I read - CONGRATULATIONS!

I almost cried in unbelievable awe.  I did it. I got in. My dreams came true since the 6th grade.  I have been putting in all my pain and tears of anxiety to my amazing recruiter Sarai for so long and I finally did it.  I prayed and prayed and prayed for a miracle to happen with my Peace Corps Application and It Finally. Came. True.

Right away I looked at the other email stating that I needed to go to another link to accept my invitation.  I cried and prayed more about if I actually REALLY wanted to pursue this great opportunity.  I didn't even think about it. I called my pretty much sister, Malea and told her the news.  She was the first one I thought of when I got accepted.  Her and I always talked about the peace corps and how I need to do it.  Instantly she started screaming on the phone and told me to "press that damn button Molly and go after your dreams."  I thought to myself - well, I have not even told my mom, dad and sister. I need to tell them first because I don't know if I can make this decision up by myself.  Malea has always been the one to physically and mentally push me to my goals and dreams of doing whatever the hell I wanted to do.  Yes there were back fires and I have regretted some things but I have never regretted listening to her.  By the time I got off the phone with her, I pressed the damn acceptance button without any fear.  I pressed a button on my cracked Iphone without thinking, who am I going to be with? Where am I going to stay? What if I get eaten by a dragon once I am in Asia? I had all these stupid scenarios in my head about the "what if" factor.  I meditated, prayed  and instantly started BAWLING my eyes out to the song "Falls" by Odesza.  My dad did this huge cute speech at my graduation dinner, trying to tie in the lyrics of Falls.  "Ever feel like you can't breathe, does the water feel too deep?  Lie awake cause you can't sleep without it.  It's gonna be alright, never gonna leave your side...." This song means the world to me as it relates to my over sea travels to Dubai then to Myanmar, Asia.  I know I am not alone. :)